I wrote this song after possibly the worst string of gigs I’ve ever experienced! It was a residency at a local pub but very few people came to listen. Occasionally someone would clap. One night I was asked to turn it down because “I want to hear the football commentary, mate!” Another night there were perhaps 3 or 4 people there, and as I started singing a song, a man at the bar turned up the volume on his phone so he could listen to whatever was coming out of it. 6 months I did that!

I lost the love for it. It coincided with (or at least added to) an ego death of epic proportions! In short, I noticed that I had been playing this ‘Mike’ character all my life, when it actual fact he was moulded to appease others and wasn’t actually ‘me’. That might sound abstract but it shifted everything.

The lyrics end with “take it away, leave it as nothing, or make my day and give me something.” Both requests came true! I didn’t see that coming!

Song #1: Whispers in a Hurricane

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Song #2: Rain Charmer

Sometimes it takes years to understand why nothing you do ever seems to be enough.

For a long time I believed I was the problem. I found myself apologising for wrongs I wasn’t aware of, questioning my own memories, walking on eggshells, and trying to fix something that could never be fixed. It took me a long time to recognise the manipulation, the gaslighting, and the cycle that kept me trapped.

When the penny finally dropped, I realised that arguing, explaining or trying harder wasn't the answer. The only thing that brought peace was distance. Some wounds have no medicine.

I wrote Rain Charmer in the middle of that realisation. There's a bit of anger in it, but also defiance. I wanted the music to carry both darkness and hope, intentionally weaving between minor and major harmony.

Big thank you to the wonderful Sarah, whose violin brings so much life and emotion to the track.